What am currently so busy ... Inevitably it's my year in Mozambique, even to the end. I am of course very happy on one side to get back to Germany, no matter and would not be bad if, but falls on the other hand, I now no longer so easy to imagine myself here. Hard to describe. It's less about material things, since Mozambique is of course hardly keep up with Germany. There is little luxury, even if it is just running hot water or the like, but as I said it's not about. Rather, I probably would
miss the lifestyle, if not all, already in some areas. I've seen a lot, experienced and learned this year. About me and about others, about people and other cultures - and I'll take back with hopefully a lot. The hospitality of the people here are often incomprehensible for Europeans, perhaps rashly. Nevertheless, I enjoy the open approach in many situations. Frequently it is approached on the street and if you open to people to move can guarantee them to succumb to go see. For women can often be very stressful, because of course the men here, too much more proactive and go directly to women. Some like the others are not.
Often I miss the open discussion of criticism. It's hard to practice on someone criticism, and certainly if you type "white" and to even younger. Because there may still be logical or correct - it is ridiculed. In my organization, I lack the will even with the new colleagues learn. They had it was really necessary and I can show them for free, but additional work and therefore must not be so sure. I do understand the unfortunately still not quite right. As always, one can not generalize even now! I speak explicitly of my colleagues (not all) and certainly not full all Mozambicans or even Africans.
Another point of me is busy right now what to expect well in Germany and how I will react. Honestly, I did a little scared! How I would like to questions: respond "And how was it?"? Who can understand or imagine at all what I have experienced? How can I explain what I have experienced? What if I lack of understanding and lack of interest? I will find quickly back into everyday life in Germany, which is so different from the Mozambican? And many other questions go through my head. I can not stop it and I'm not the only one prepared to this headache. We discuss a lot of volunteers and reflect each other and prepare our experiences with people on the already longer in the country. The seminars that we are both still available in Mozambique and in Germany for follow-up can probably solve many problems and questions. At least I hope so too, if the help is all, is nevertheless most of the questions / ideas / problems only in Germany, solve, or maybe not.
spite of all this, I first of all have some great weeks in a beautiful country with equally wonderful people before me and I will enjoy and still not make me crazy. Is not my thing to make me crazy.
was perhaps the one of the last blog entries, I do not know yet ... We'll see. As
then, possibly until next time
Elias
